Why Being White is Inconvenient

I don't think being white is necessarily a good thing. The sun isn't very kind to white skin; the whiter you are, the redder you'll be after soaking up some rays.

It also seems like black people, and every other race have sort of an automatic clique. It seems typical for people of any other race to seek each other out in a crowd and be instant buddies, whereas white people are usually not very approachable.

People think it's better being white because we have privilege. Well, I don't want privilege (or the assumption of it,) or anything that makes me stand out or attract attention. Social anxiety makes me very uncomfortable with anyone of observing me. It's true that culturally/ socially, I'm pretty white. I don't really like this aspect of myself. Beyond the nerdy, socially-autistic daily me, there is a me with many cool unique qualities. The real me doesn't mind going to parties. The daily me will avoid parties at all costs. Would this be different if I was a different race? Possibly. Not favorably, according to sociology, but maybe not that much worse. Maybe better. At least I'd have the support of people of the same race.

People seem to assume that all white people are racist. Well, as a product of our school system, we pretty much are. But we are also forced into this box when people make this assumption. It's not necessarily where we want to be. People seem to observe with scrutiny for signs of prejudice. And, in my case, I think this observation effects exactly what they are looking for. I don't like that part of me. My shadow, as Jung would define it. But it's there. And it's part of me. That I have to accept. And move on.

Another thing about my white skin, probably from the Irish genes, is that it can be itchy and dry at times. Icky. But then again, I am aware that a lot of black people have the same problem. It seems; correct me if I'm wrong; that Latin or Asian skin is the most healthy. That would probably be the ideal suit of skin for me to wear, but you've got what you've got, right?

It's not easy being white. Or black. Or green. Or any other color.